Beneath the Burn by Pam Godwin
Synopsis
They meet by chance. The timing is wrong.
Three years later, she finds him again, but their separation was poisoned with narcotics and bloodied by enslavement.
Her freedom gambled away, Charlee Grosky escapes the international businessman who held her captive. But his power reaches beyond her protective barriers and threatens everyone she has come to love.
Jay Mayard wears his tortured secrets under his rock god facade. Drugs are his release, even as he seeks to be the man forged of the steel only she can see.
In a celebrity world filled with paparazzi, groupies, and drugs, Jay and Charlee must face their worst fears. When the battle is over, what will be left...Beneath The Burn.
Genre: Romantic/Erotic Thriller
Content warning: Includes graphic rape, sex, anal, bondage, and violence. Age 18+ only.
Three years later, she finds him again, but their separation was poisoned with narcotics and bloodied by enslavement.
Her freedom gambled away, Charlee Grosky escapes the international businessman who held her captive. But his power reaches beyond her protective barriers and threatens everyone she has come to love.
Jay Mayard wears his tortured secrets under his rock god facade. Drugs are his release, even as he seeks to be the man forged of the steel only she can see.
In a celebrity world filled with paparazzi, groupies, and drugs, Jay and Charlee must face their worst fears. When the battle is over, what will be left...Beneath The Burn.
Genre: Romantic/Erotic Thriller
Content warning: Includes graphic rape, sex, anal, bondage, and violence. Age 18+ only.
Review
5 SMOOCHES!!!!!
"Dare to be vulnerable with me?
Holy hell this book rocked my world. 5 gut wrenching SMOOCHES!!!!
Charlee is on the run from billionaire Roy Oxford who has held her as his own personal sex slave since she was 16 years old. He has done unthinkable things to her. She changed her name and appearance and settled in St. Louis where she runs a tattoo shop.
Jay is haunted by a very tragic and disturbing past and carries the scars on his back as a reminder. He is very closed off and afraid to be touched. He won't open up to anyone. Jay is in a band called The Burn. After a show in St. Louis he happens upon Charlee's tattoo shop and decides to have her cover his scars.
"One of these days, Jay Mayard, you will wear those scars with pride."
They won't see each other for another 3 years but they have both never been far from the others thoughts.
The day after meeting Jay, Charlee is recaptured. Roy is just horrible.. it is really hard to read about the things he does to Charlee. This book is not for the weak. It is not an easy read.. Roy beats and rapes Charlee repeatedly.
"I control you, dominate you, and your eyes spark for more as your juices run down your legs. you fight me because you know I love it." ~Roy
Jay goes back for Charlee and she is gone.. He is heartbroken and she becomes his Muse. The Burn takes off with his new songs written about a girl he spent only an hour with.. a girl who changed his life forever.
"You weren't just a girl...
You were a vision. And with that vision I will endure...
I know something about pain. I have enough to liberate. I'm letting it go...
But I will never let you go...
You weren't just a girl. You were a vision. And with that vision, I choose to live."
After three years of captivity, Charlee is rescued and she and Jay find their way back to each other to face their ghosts together.
"... for two years and two months, I stared at the Golden Gate Bridge from Roy's penthouse window. I watched it weather the strongest storms, rise above the thickest fogs, and buttress countless commuters with unbending steel. I used to fantasize that one day, it might carry me to a place Roy couldn't touch me... When I look at you, I see that bridge."
Jay is a famous rock star and Charlee a girl on the run. He will do whatever it takes to keep her safe even putting himself and his band in the line of fire.
She was his greatest possibility. His reason. His why. He would give whatever she needed to be whole and happy, because loving her was as essential as drawing air.
While he is fighting to keep her safe, she is fighting to breakdown his walls and heal his pain. Their relationship is beautiful in the midst of a lot of ugly.
"Will you walk to me? Will you move so close that the ground wobbles, the walls between us crumble, and your thoughts rip open until we're melding our fears and hopes as easily as we share air?"
"Just... just show me how."
OMG this book just has it ALL.. you will constantly be on the edge of your seat wondering what is going to happen next. It is tragic and sick.. it is filled with angst and a beautiful love. I swear this book ripped my heart into shreds more than once and I am still trying to put it back together.. it is also funny. While on the run with Jay's band, you get to know his band mates and body guards and they are hilarious and endearing.
A few laugh out loud moments for me:
"what the hell is a crumpet anyway?"
"A tasty little muffin."
"Does it have blonde hair and blue eyes?... I've changed my mind... I want a crumpet"
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"Who needs groupies when I can listen to you two every night? Can you pass me a sock or something? I just spewed down my leg."~ Laz
Charlee is on the run from billionaire Roy Oxford who has held her as his own personal sex slave since she was 16 years old. He has done unthinkable things to her. She changed her name and appearance and settled in St. Louis where she runs a tattoo shop.
Jay is haunted by a very tragic and disturbing past and carries the scars on his back as a reminder. He is very closed off and afraid to be touched. He won't open up to anyone. Jay is in a band called The Burn. After a show in St. Louis he happens upon Charlee's tattoo shop and decides to have her cover his scars.
"One of these days, Jay Mayard, you will wear those scars with pride."
They won't see each other for another 3 years but they have both never been far from the others thoughts.
The day after meeting Jay, Charlee is recaptured. Roy is just horrible.. it is really hard to read about the things he does to Charlee. This book is not for the weak. It is not an easy read.. Roy beats and rapes Charlee repeatedly.
"I control you, dominate you, and your eyes spark for more as your juices run down your legs. you fight me because you know I love it." ~Roy
Jay goes back for Charlee and she is gone.. He is heartbroken and she becomes his Muse. The Burn takes off with his new songs written about a girl he spent only an hour with.. a girl who changed his life forever.
"You weren't just a girl...
You were a vision. And with that vision I will endure...
I know something about pain. I have enough to liberate. I'm letting it go...
But I will never let you go...
You weren't just a girl. You were a vision. And with that vision, I choose to live."
After three years of captivity, Charlee is rescued and she and Jay find their way back to each other to face their ghosts together.
"... for two years and two months, I stared at the Golden Gate Bridge from Roy's penthouse window. I watched it weather the strongest storms, rise above the thickest fogs, and buttress countless commuters with unbending steel. I used to fantasize that one day, it might carry me to a place Roy couldn't touch me... When I look at you, I see that bridge."
Jay is a famous rock star and Charlee a girl on the run. He will do whatever it takes to keep her safe even putting himself and his band in the line of fire.
She was his greatest possibility. His reason. His why. He would give whatever she needed to be whole and happy, because loving her was as essential as drawing air.
While he is fighting to keep her safe, she is fighting to breakdown his walls and heal his pain. Their relationship is beautiful in the midst of a lot of ugly.
"Will you walk to me? Will you move so close that the ground wobbles, the walls between us crumble, and your thoughts rip open until we're melding our fears and hopes as easily as we share air?"
"Just... just show me how."
OMG this book just has it ALL.. you will constantly be on the edge of your seat wondering what is going to happen next. It is tragic and sick.. it is filled with angst and a beautiful love. I swear this book ripped my heart into shreds more than once and I am still trying to put it back together.. it is also funny. While on the run with Jay's band, you get to know his band mates and body guards and they are hilarious and endearing.
A few laugh out loud moments for me:
"what the hell is a crumpet anyway?"
"A tasty little muffin."
"Does it have blonde hair and blue eyes?... I've changed my mind... I want a crumpet"
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"Who needs groupies when I can listen to you two every night? Can you pass me a sock or something? I just spewed down my leg."~ Laz
***Review by Heather
Smooches back at you! What a delicious, lip-smacking review. Thank you.
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